I've seen the HBP movie twice now, so I feel like I've absorbed enough to come up with a fairly reasonable review that goes beyond just my initial reactions. The first night, I went to a midnight showing, fully decked out in Hogwarts garb and I had a really great time! While we were seated in the theater waiting for the movie to start, some girl got up in front and suggested that we all sing The Mysterious Ticking Noise from Potter Puppet Pals. She divided the theater into groups and gave each group a part. It was pretty awesome. I really love Harry Potter fans.

So, spoilers after the cut. Beyond the obvious ( Snape Kills Dumbledore! )

I've spent a good amount of time thinking about the entire Children of Earth series and reading a lot of what other people have to say about it.

This isn't so much a complete review as it is just a haphazard collection of thoughts and
reactions regarding the series and fandom.

( So obviously, the rest of this post will contain SPOILERS for Torchwood Children of Earth )

Sooo...

I'm back.

It's been a very long time, but somehow I always end up back here at good old LiveJournal.

I missed all my fandoms. And I wanted to be a part of some new ones. And I wanted a vehicle through which I could shamelessly talk about myself in more than 140 characters. So here I am!

:D

Ok I know its been a while and I have a HUGE update coming soon about the awesome wedding I was at this weekend, but first -

Why the FUCK am I NOT INTO TORCHWOOD?? SERIOUSLY? I must fix this immediately. IMMEDIATELY!

I can't sleep, and I've been wondering about this for a while, so I thought I'd make a poll.

I want to know, when you're reading fanfiction, is there anything listed in the warnings or summaries that can be a total deal breaker for you? Definitely what squicks you, but also, is there anything that you're just NOT interested in reading? For example, dub-con squicks me so I avoid that like the plague, but I also stay away from het and established relationships.

My little disclaimer is that we've ALL read stuff that was not necessarily our "thing," so if you normally skip AU's, but you did really enjoy that one where [insert really cool AU plot here] then you should STILL check that you avoid AU's. Hell, I can name 2 Mpregs that I love, but generally speaking...

Also, I obviously couldn't include EVERY warning EVER, so I mostly used stuff that I see coming up a lot. If I forgot anything, please feel free to comment.

Anyway, ( onto the poll! )

I think Obama won just because he said "orgy."

:D

It's me, the girl who is very nervous about your presence in her favorite show...

But I will say that this week's episode may have had the best title ever.

( 4.02 Are You There God? It's Me, Dean Winchester )

When I decided to come back to LJ, it was NOT to write whiny, emo posts where I bitch about my mother. But...this is a whiny, emo post where I bitch about my mother.

I was all set to go to sleep and I went to say goodnight to her and maybe chat for a few minutes. But the conversation quickly turned into a round of "Let's Ask Sara All the Questions That Make Her Really Upset." And I know that I do have a habit of ignoring the things that I should be dealing with, but it's so frustrating to have all the things I'm freaking out about thrown back at me in the form of "So what are you doing about this?"

And now all I can think about is what a horrible, unproductive person I am. *sigh*

It's more of the fact that now I can't sleep now because I keep thinking about all the things she said. Most of which she is right about, but who wants to have a conversation about the "direction your life is going in" right before bed?

Hi!

Well, to say "it's been a while" would be a pretty big understatement.

I haven't looked at my flist or updated my LJ in like 6 months...most of you who left me on your flists probably either don't remember who I am or you resent me for never answering your comments from six months ago. :X I do apoligize...like a lot. And I know I've done this before...I dunno, sometimes I just need to take a step back from LJ [and from fandom] but it seems that I do always come back in the end.

So to all the people that I haven't spoken to in a looong while, I just want to say that I'm going to do my best to get re-acquainted with your lives and that I'm sorry I've been so distant.

I've been missing LJ a lot lately. So...I guess I'm back. :D

I had a great night last night. I went to a Wrock show at the Sidewalk Cafe and saw Swish and Flick [for the first time - they're awesome!], Justin Finch-Fletchly [also a lot of fun], The Whomping Willows [whom I love], and Draco and the Malfoys [always amazing]. There's just something so moving about a room full of people shouting along to a song about Harry and Draco's love for one another :P AND DatM played "In Which I Kick Harry Potter in the Face" which they almost never play and it was SO very awesome! I had a great time.

After that, I trudged uptown to meet Brian...only to end up back downtown, about three blocks away from where I started. But it was ok because I had a lot of fun and he was able to start paying me back. With booze. :D We stayed out until about 5:30, which in hindsight was probably not such a good idea. I had work at 10:30 this morning, and though I did make it, I was pretty much a mess all day. Work sucked a lot and I hated it, and I didn't get out until 6:45...BUT I made $208. So after that I couldn't really complain.

Lauren and I had dinner at her new place of employment [CPK] and I ate way too much and I feel totally gross, but it was a lot of fun because I feel like it's been a while since the two of us hung out.

Sooo since I have all of these fun things going on here in NY, this brings me to what this post is *really* about.

Mollie asked me to move to San Francisco with her. And I can't decide what to do. There's really no reason for me to stay here. But then again, it's not like there's anything for me in California. It would just be a change, and I'm not sure if changing just to change is what I should do. But then again, I've been very stagnant and I feel like part of me is afraid to actually start the ball rolling...but I feel like I'll *never* accomplish anything here. It's too easy. If I'm not forced to step up to a challenge I won't do anything.

So I guess I'm leaning towards going. I *have* to leave at some point, and I think it's better to do it with someone I know than to do it alone. I mean, it would probably be for about a year. I could use a year away, I think. And then I'll go from there.

Maybe.

I just got back from Creation Con in Dallas! I had a GREAT time!

For my first con experience, I have to say it was pretty awesome. Everyone said it was pretty small [mostly due to the fact that a lot of people switched to Chicago after hearing about Jensen] but it was nice.

I met some really cool people [hello new friends!] and I promised them that I'll keep things up to date on my lj and stop disappearing. :P

I was pretty far back, so I don't have any good pictures from the panels, but my photo ops were pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. My first [and probably best] was with Gabe who is THE. CUTEST. THING. EVER! He is so sweet and so freaking adorable. I wanted to take silly pictures with them so with Gabe I was like "can we just scare each other?" and he was totally into it. All of them were great about it. [I'll post the pics at the end under a cut if you want to see them, plus a few of us and other random things.]

As much as I tried not to be, I WAS a little nervous to meet Jared. But he is, like everyone says, the most awesomely nice person to ever exist, so it was a great experience. Later, when he was doing autographs, he ran out of time and had to leave to get back to Austin so he got up and walked down the line to sign stuff for people so that it would go faster. [Instead of, you know, just being like "sorry g2g!"] He's really great.

And everyone else was awesome too! They're all so nice and they seem so happy that they get to go out and meet fans like this. I really had a great time and I *think* I'm going to go to Eyecon in Sept. IF I can scrounge up the money.

I'm not really good at long write-ups, and I'm sure a bunch of other people have already done it better, so...

( Pics! )

I had such a great time! Now all I want to do is go watch Supernatural! :D


ETA: Help! I suck at the internet! I resized all my pics so that they were a normal size, but then when I uploaded them, LJ resized them again and now they look too small and shitty. I tried to change the size to what I had originally done, but then they just got all pixilated and even more shitty. How do I fix this?

So I was looking forward to this HatP concert for like two months. But then I felt like complete shit today and in an effort to stop myself from getting sicker, I decided to skip it and stay home and rest. While that did suck a lot, it really was for the best because I'm working a double tomorrow and I really can't afford to be sick. And they're coming back to New York for two more shows this summer, so atleast I'll still get to see them. And I am feeling a lot better than I was earlier, so with some Dayquil I should be able to get through tomorrow without too much suffering.

Or I would be if I was able to sleep. See, when I decided to stay home and rest, that basically translated into "sleep all day." And now that I really need to go to bed so I can wake up tomorrow, I can't. I tried to sleep for like an hour, but I got frustrated and gave up. Then I came online and did various LJ activities [read fan fic] hoping that would make me sleepy.

It didn't really, but I guess there's nothing else for me to do but try to sleep again. If I fall asleep by 6, I'll get 5 hours of sleep which isn't horrible I guess.

Oh, and happy Mother's Day to all the moms on my flist :)

Nothing very exciting has been going on lately. I tried to get a new phone today [to replace the one that broke in like March] but it didn't work out very well. So long story short, I'm still using my old phone that buzzes whenever I talk on it. :D

In an effort to ease my way back into LJ I did some flist pruning today. Not in the sense of actual people, but I left a bunch of comms that were just clogging up my flist and making it tedious to read. There was a time when I thought I needed to join every single community related to every interest I've ever had. Thankfully, I'm over that.

I still haven't decided what I'm doing about Terminus. BUT Harry and the Potters in TWO DAYS and that's awesome because I haven't had the pleasure of seeing them yet. AND in more HP-related news, I know you fellow Shoeboxers saw that impending-update update! I can't wait :D Gah, I need to reread!!

I'm not so excited about Jensen not going to Creation Con in Dallas. You know, it's not like he's my favorite or anything and I haven't been trying and failing to meet him for like a year. :( But, as I said to Kim, Jared is more fun, so I can't really complain. And it's still really exciting to meet a huge amount of the rest of the cast as well.

On the subject of SPN, ( spoilers for Time is On My Side and the preview for next week )

I have a long day tomorrow, so hopefully I'll be able to fall asleep and wake up at a reasonable hour.

Fuck fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck.

Ok, so here is the problem with flitting in and out of fandom the way that I do. You MISS things. Or you hear about things at the last minute and then you DESPERATELY WANT TO GO.

Ok. Ok. Creation con in Dallas. I want to go sooo badly. I can AFFORD to go [I mean, sort of...]

But...but...its only a month away. AND I really wanted to go to Terminus. But you know..Jared. And Jensen. In Texas. And oh I'm so fucked.

I could do this and Terminus...maybe. On the other hand, if I don't go to Terminus, I can go to the All Points West festival.

And you know, the whole Jared and Jensen thing.

Shit. I didn't even look at flights and hotels, but its already kind of last minute so it will probably be a lot. But if I do this instead of Terminus I'm really SAVING money...

I think I might do it. Are any of you guys going?

I know its been a while since I've posted anything [despite the fact that my last entry said I was back :X] and even longer since I've reviewed and episode of SPN. But tonights episode was so frustrating that I couldn't keep it to myself. So here I am.

I do want to start this off by saying that Jared and Jensen have never looked better. Sorry, but it's the truth. Ok...

( Long Distance Call )

Sorry I've been sucking at LJ lately.

I don't feel like anything particularly interesting has happened to me in the last few months, but I miss LJ and I want to come back.

So hi. How is everyone?

Oh, I cried. I cried so fucking much. They really know their audience and they know how to get us. This was def the schmoopiest episode to date, but I loved every minute of it.

Also, little!Dean is amazing.

I love this show.

I'm sorry I've been so shitty at answering comments and keeping up with my flist. Unfortunately this post isn't actually an attempt to remedy either of those things. This post is about the dreaded Real Life.

I am so unbelieveably stressed out.

Somehow, despite the fact that I have TWO jobs, I'm completely broke. This is probably because I spent a lot of money last week on...food. And drinking. This is not good. Also, working at Lush is not good either. So far, I've gotten one paycheck for about $80. I've spent a little under $300. So since I started working at Lush I've made -$220.

In all fairness, the $300 I spent is $600 worth of products. But still.

As much as I love working there, it's kind of a waste of time and money. I could be working at Chili's and making more money. And at Chili's, atleast I'm not tempted to spend hundreds of dollars after work.

I haven't bought one Christmas present, and after examining my funds, I don't know how I'm going to afford anything.

Bills are starting to creep up on me and it's making me very stressed out.

I had implemented an "ignore stuff and maybe it'll go away" policy, but that just makes things worse. I really don't know what to do to fix any of this.

I guess just one step at a time, but I don't know what the first step is. I feel like I always make the wrong decisions. And any time I decide something, I change my mind a week later.

I'm really genuinely starting to get scared that I am a complete failure. At life.

Oh, and then there's the whole possibly dropping out of college thing.
I don't really want to talk about it. I'm not exactly dropping out I'm just...not going to NYU anymore.

I don't know what to do.

I am not feeling the holiday spirit very much today.

Fucking...everything.